Tuesday, May 2, 2017

He's Never Left

Hello lovelies!

Today I want to do a very special blog post. I'm dedicating this post to the one constant in my life: My husband.

If I'm being 100% honest, marriage is hard. Especially when you live with someone like me. I am selfish, dramatic and get upset over the small things.

Yet, he's never left. He's still here.

When I've broken his heart and made him wonder if I love him at all...

He never left. He's still here.

When I have put other friendships and relationships before him...

He never left. He's still here.

We are two totally different people. For so long, I've seen this as a bad thing. I've tried pushing him away, all the while blaming him for not "understanding" me. I thought because we didn't have the same interests and desires in life, that we couldn't/wouldn't make it. I doubted us as a couple and I doubted him as man-- as my husband.

What I've realized here lately is that he has shown me more love than probably anyone else in my life--ever. He has shown forgiveness when I didn't deserve it, patience when I was at my worst, but most of all-- love. He has shown me that no matter what circumstances come our way, he will always love me. He will never give up on me-- and trust me, there have been plenty of times when he should have.

I've always pictured marriage as this big fairytale. I was incorrect. Life is not a fairytale. Life is hard. Sometimes life kicks you and beats you down so hard that it feels like you can't get your head above water. My husband may not be perfect-- and we may not have the PERFECT marriage (no one really does), but I do know that I have someone I can count on. Forever. And that means more to me than anything.

I love you Tyler Wade Smith! I'm sorry for being the selfish person I've been! You mean the world to me and I am going to love you with everything inside of me for the rest of our lives, no matter what! <3

Love always,

"Love is not 'if' or 'because'. Love is 'anyway' and 'even though' and 'in spite of'."

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